I remembered it was Christmas time when I were 9 years old, I walked through stores which ornamented by Christmas decoration. Everything looked stunning in red, green and gold with many sparkling Christmas lights. And my eyes was straightly lead up to a very beautiful Christmas card in the corner.  In those days people commonly send greetings through card and that’s why we can find a lot of greeting cards on holiday season. But amongst all cards, this card was very special because there were a lot of handmade ornaments put on its front page, and when you open the card, there is a Christmas tree complete with its ornament popping up, and also you can find a snow covered roof house with a little window put on its wall. 

When I saw that beautiful Christmas card, I instantly love it at the first sight, and I imagine myself playing with this popping up Christmas tree and put it on my table beside my bed so I can see it every time I open my eyes. But how can I get that card. That card was so expensive,  even I must save my pocket money from my parents a whole month without spending it. I was also scared to ask my mom to buy it for me because she would say that it was wasting money and useless. So days after, every day, I just pass through that store, enjoy that Christmas card from the distance and strongly try hold my desire. But it didn’t make my feeling any better.

But one day, I dared myself to ask my mom to buy that card for me. I was ready to face any rejections and words of disagreement, but I promise to myself to take that chance or never. And then with my bumping heartbeat, I slowly walked to my mom during her time in the living room, told her that beautiful card and how I want that card so much, and of course prepared myself for the worst. But this is what I never expected before, she smiled to me and with a gentle nod, she said “Let’s go to that store before somebody else get it !”

In our life, many times, we know exactly what we want, we can see it so clearly and even we can feel it every day in our hand. But not even a chase, sometimes we are too afraid to take a step forward to our desire. There are a lot of worries and 'what if' haunting our mind. But when Ferdy & Indah shared their story with us, it reminds me of my Christmas card story that I shared above.

Ferdy told us he knew Indah from their church few years ago, and since the first time he saw her, he knew that Indah will be the person who will accompany him for the rest of his life. But like my story above, he hold his feeling only for himself. But it didn’t take long until he dared himself, jumping all his worries and hesitation to say his feeling to Indah. And them now, they are already to tied their knot, say their promise in the front of human and God where they will be loving each other, keep each other, guide each other, and live each other until death do them part. 

Best

Steven Lee